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"I write only because there is a voice within me that will not be still." ~Sylvia Plath
I am a lot of things, and writer is at the top of the list. I've been writing in some form my whole life, even as a kid. I've written poetry and stories because in some strange way, I don't have a choice.
I get this intensity inside me, this restlessness that I can't deny. Eventually, I came to realize that that feeling was anxiety. All my life, my relief from the hold of anxiety has been to write. I didn't understand until much later that this compulsion to put my words on paper was my way of understanding the world and my place in it.
I completely understand Sylvia's voice inside that will not be still. Even now that yoga and meditation have helped me curb my anxious tendencies, I still get restless when I don't spend time writing.
Most of the time, I write for myself. I have journals and morning pages all over the place. I bookmark ideas to post about and quotes that resonate with me. I sometimes just ramble on in a stream of consciousness, just to see what is rattling around in my head.
Often times, after sitting down to attend to that voice within me, I come away with some conclusion about what to do next and then I can set an intention. This is the best feeling to me, writing is very satisfying in this way.
I think it is very interesting how differently people handle situations and emotions. For me, writing is the answer to almost anything, at least in the questioning and observing stages. However, I know others who paint or draw, who knit, run or do woodworking. We all have a hobby or compulsion that satisfies us, to help us hear that voice inside of us that can't be still.
What do you do when you hear that voice within you?